wat an early post today. to begin my day, wif a post. lol, to signify this special day - the earliest i've ever woken up since i came to finland. i woke up at 4,30am. OMG!!! yah, apparently to attend a stupid event where i almost made myself look like a fool..in the hope of getting an almost non-existent white cap. zz.

Yesterday silverfish received 2 boxes of alcohol from her father. 2 BIG BOXES!!! she told me she only requested for 2 beers and 2 spirits to show her boyfren..HER BOYFREN..(the cheaterbug)..but she got 2 boxes, 19 bottles in all! haha..its either alcohol is really that inexpensive in her hometown or she is really damn well-off. but i thot that was rather much exaggerated. haha.

speaking of silverfish, i was so fuming mad wif her that day..apparently she didnt know 2 things: 1, how to ask permission and 2, the purpose of shampoo. she used my shampoo w/o permission. how i know? well, i've got DOG of a NOSE, so i smelled it. and the smell or i shd say the FRAGRANCE was so strong that it filled the entire bathroom and u can even smell it when she walks past u. u can imagine how much of my shampoo she used. maybe as a shower gel as well. LOL. but i shan't keep harping on it, cos i'm magnanimous and benevolent. thou shall forgive and forget.

last nite guoyuan told me that his clean laundry were found on the floor, cos some inconsiderate soul wanted to use THAT particular machine that he used..despite the many other empty machines..it seemed like he was just mere irritated, thou he had been treated the same way times and again. somehow if i were him, i wouldnt be that nice. he told me he stopped that fella's machine to seek revenge. if i were him, i might very possibly dump that fella's clothes into the big bin next to the machine. so that the fella would make a fool of himself by collecting his laundry from the dustbin instead of the washing machines.

next thurs is exam! analog somemore..wat a difficult way of starting the series of exams. i just hope that i pass those tough ones. if not life would be tougher when i go back to NTU.

today is such a slack day! lots of things to do, but nth really urgent, that's why i'm taking things rather too easily.

yesterday wilson finally talked to me online. after such a looooong time..which makes me face the fact that, everyone changes, and things change as well. those days were always the happiest.

in the past, we thought everything we do were very grown-up and we sort of enjoy them. k2..ole tampines, lyncia and i wandered around the whole premises on our own; thinking that we were old enuf to be w/o our parents. but when we realised we really couldn't find our parents, we were scared.

p6 i attended the 1st bday party. omg, i felt so "woah" at that time. come to think of it, if i were a bystander, i would actually be looking at just a bunch of naive kids, not even 1.4m tall, playing around like kids should. there's no big deal.

sec2 we were stupid enuf to believe that by waking up at 4am to queue at bedok stadium, we would be able to get the NDP tickets. did we really not know that pple would have queued overnight? why were we so foolish as to get our mothers to wake up early wif us to do some silly things?

yesterdays were always nice to look back at. we laugh at ourselves then. tomorrow, when we look back at what we did today, would too be a joke. we are growing up le!

we used to laugh at pple's names. lychee, mee hong kong, chua puay kee, reebok... i mean, we still do. those were dumb but enjoyable stuff.

would we still rmb the jokes we used to crack, the stupid things we used to do..10 yrs down the road? will we still be friends, hanging out tgther, singing k, eating sushi, doing the things we used to do when we were much much younger?

this post is not meant to be an emo post. it just serves as a reminder for myself, and all who come across this post, to treasure everyday.

the weather in Finland sure is weird and sudden..why, i thot a few days ago i was still digging for my gloves in my bag, all of a sudden its 15-18C..who needs gloves when u are in an air-con room? Haha.

this morning was HRM exam. thou i think i crapped my way through the defining concepts, i should be able to pass. somehow i doubt my brain capacity..has it shrunk? i rmb i used to be able to memorise more things more vividly. but somehow it has deteriorated. am i stupider? or was i just like before? i was scared last night when nth seemed to go into the highly folded and complex organ in the shell sitting on my neck. oh well, its over. i really hope i can pass, and i seriously think i might study less for the next round. the EE subjects are much harder to tackle.

now i'm tired. my fotos are re-uploading (sth's wrong wif the stupid drivers) and my head is in a stupid throbbing pain. I'm supposed to mop the floor, but i'm sheer lazy.
i might go sauna later. i dismissed the thot of jogging cos apparently, there isn't a proper clear route. i'm not a map person, so when Andrea took out the map and explained the route to me, i was half lost.

i checked out the price of bowling here. couldnt believe my ears - ear drum, ear canals and nerves when the person told me 20 euros per hr. crazy. absolutely! thou I'm not exactly sure how much bowling is in sg, but i'm pretty sure it doesn't require u to take out a 50 sgd note and only get back a 10 sgd change. ha!

i was kinda surprised at the mention of felicia's name this morning. it might have crossed my mind that she's taking the same subject too, but the thot seemed to be a mere passer-by. i'm not an independent person. so why didn't i make good use of the luxury and privilege of having a fellow sgrean fren staying just 1 floor beneath me? we could have done a lot of things tgther..cooking, eating, slacking, hanging out, sauna-ing, going to sch...if the person is ys, or gg1 or BLM or anyone else, it might have been a different case, wouldn't it be?

there's a flea market in the vicinity. cool! its good to see that there's civilisation in the quiet espoo city. the numbers seemed friendly, but after doing the maths, they didn't seem to be as nice moments ago. i couldn't resist the urge to bye the eggplant sold in Lid'l. its so cute and nice, and perfect. i didn't really know how to cook it, luckily, my mum enlightened me. LOL.

i cant help reflect the housework and menial tasks i have done since i came here, and i think i should compliment myself. never would i have thot that there's such a day when i have to do everything by myself. its not a lot, but its just so not-of-me. haha. but when I'm back in sg, I'm me again. haha. i look forward to that day.

Back from Easter holiday last week.

Next Sat is HRM exam.

Sucks. I feel like I'm a book worm, having to read and study and MEMORIZE the whole textbook. No doubt memorizing does make studying less..um..stressful, but which kid in town likes to study? If only i could play whole day long, sleep day and night...

Last night I had an almost-nightmare. I dreamt of me driving up an almost vertical slope. Naturally i had no faith in making my way up, and i was right when the car flipped and crashed towards the direction of gravity. I knew I should have gotten my sis to drive the car, but then she was at the backseat. It was impossible for her to control anything at that point in time. Instantaneously, all in the car (my parents and my 2nd sis) lost consciousness and i couldn't, at all, make them come around.

Miraculously, I was back at home the next instant and my mum was happily cooking in the kitchen. she even told me that my dad and 2nd sis were fine and still alive..and the unconscious persons in the car were just the physical bodies. I was a bit lost, but somehow I believed what she said since she was a living example. LOL

Boohoo..changes after changes. All is finally confirmed as we have paid the money. *OUCH!* Its gonna burn a hole in the pocket temporarily..but i hope everything would be worth the burn.

Haha. Planning 1 trip to 1 place is ok. But planning a trip to many different places is not easy, especially when we have to accommodate to the plane schedule and the money issue. Nevertheless, a compromise has been made and here are the most updated details:

18may Helsinki-Tallinn
20may Tallinn-Riga
22may Riga-Berlin
24May Berlin-Hamburg
26may Hamburg-Pisa
28may Pisa-Seville
30may Seville-Dublin
01jun Dublin-Glasgow
04jun Edinburgh-Zurich
09jun Geneva-Frankfurt
11jun Frankfurt-Singapore


We have sort of decided to ship our big luggage back to sg first so as to avoid the inconvenience of carrying it with us, or to save the costs of checking in or to leave it at FRA. Thanks to guoyuan for his idea. Thou the thought of 185 euros to do the shipping sounds quite *woah*, but the other alternatives were even "woah-er*. LOL

Frankly speaking, I'm not sure what kinda long holiday awaits us. It sounds luxurious, but its really abt roughing it out. How much luxury can 2 gals afford? But at least, we are off from a ~ 20kg load. And one thing's for sure, I'll not crave for any plane rides in the near future.

Friday is our Easter vacation to Oslo and Stockholm. Not sure if its gonna be a fun-filled trip as the itinerary seems rather European. Oh well, its the company and the experience that matters. No heavy luggage! No more bedbugs! OFF! I hope that the stupid bedbug bites wont leave a permanent scar on my hands. I have had enuf souvenirs.

I look forward to the day of return 65 days later.

Happy 200th post! I wonder whats there to be happie abt.

Anyway, the plan has finally been laid. At least almost confirmed, minus the booking.

20/05 Helsinki-Tallinn
23/05 Tallinn-Riga
26/05 Riga-Glasgow
30/05 Edinburgh/Glasgow-Dublin
02/06 Dublin-Prague
05/06 Prague-Zurich
08/06 Zurich-Dusseldorf
11/06 Frankfurt-SINGAPORE!!!

All these for less than 200Euros (400SGD)..this excludes the final flight and the accommodation thou.
Hopefully exams will end on 14May, which makes me just ~1mth away from the day of freedom!

This afternoon, Andrea asked if I look forward to the day I leave Finland. Naturally my answer was "yes". Why...isn't that the expected answer? Haha.

Just finished watching "Hotel for Dogs". A typical kinda movie I would have watched in the cinema back in sg. It brought back many wonderful memories. The question now is, so have I made up my mind?

its the last few days of march and its still snowing..will spring ever come? the shops selling impractical clothes now, because its not possible for customers to wear those summer clothes that they are selling, NOW!

so many things to do

lab prelim and actual ex
electrical eng. project
applied field ex
analog ex
modeling test on Thurs
hundreds of strategy, finance and leadership terms to memorise

so many things on my mind

worrying abt failing the courses here
worrying abt the driving lessons schedule
worrying abt letting go or not
worrying abt whether qifen is still going to stay in hall
worrying abt why i'm having panda eyes when i've slept for 12hours

if i am a magician, i will conjure some magic tricks that will bring me back to Singapore, with all the credits in my transcripts, with all the worries solved and gone forever and ever and ever and ever.....

today is a day when everything doesnt seem to happen logically.

1200 i touched the hot oven and burnt my hand
1300 i played hasee bounce in the hope of getting 1000..but i got 944 and 962 instead
1900 a silverfish appeared on the floor in my room
1955 my roommate and her imagined-bf were in the house
2000 the 2 of them were missing
my other roomie asked if i wanted to eat their leftover mashed potato
blood oozed out of my cooked chicken drumstick
2100 the 2 of them reappeared. sitting in the kitchen in the dark.

How true about me is this personality test?
(http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx)

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Today i received the parcel that 1st sis sent. I was happy and moved. The parcel contained 2 cute Zara t-shirts and a pair of earrings. I think it cost her at least S$60 in all. Its not just the money she spent on me...its really the thought that counts. I'm so fortunate.

Just when i thot its gonna to stop snowing, it snowed again. -.-"
i also dun undstd why i dislike the snow so much. Its not sth that I get to see everyday in Singapore. Its also not the main reason why i fell. BUT i just dun like it LOR. haha.

i realise that our singlish is really sth that we undstd. a few times, i accidentally blurted out "lah" and "lor" in front of my foreign roomies. they weren't stunned at the use of the words, but it just seemed that the dynamics of the sentence and the intended meaning wasnt conveyed across. but we didnt care anyway.

i had a weird dream last night. it was split into 3 main parts. 1st i dreamt of sze jie. Of so many pple, i dreamt of him. maybe becos Mr Pang and I were discussing the senr camp top and we mentioned him. but that was the day before. Haha. anyway i dreamt of this weird notebook (those you write on) that was almost like a pdf. i rmb logging in to neopets using his notebook. so funny. i dreamt that i was in a cottage with him, and one of the beds in the bathroom had exactly the same bedsheet and blanket that i'm using right now. LOL. why would there be a bed in a bathroom. Haha.

the 2nd part was kangting's wedding. i dunno who she was getting married to, but it was supposed to be her wedding at MarinaMandarin hotel. Somehow Gilian was there too. Haha. Anyway, we met at the basement of rafflescity and we wanted to get into a lift so that we can get to the MRT station. but somehow some of our ex-classmates like XQK and Doreen are stopping us from getting into the lift and stopping the lift door from closing. it seems as if they are stopping me and zj from attending the wedding. Mr and Mrs Wong were there too. we were late and there was no way we could stop the gang from stopping the lift. we finally gave up and decided to take a cab. but no matter how hard i tried to call for one, there was still no cab. in the end, a white cab stopped and picked us, after he has let a group of Pakistan pple got down. Weird thing is it was me, and my parents who boarded the cab. it was no longer my classmates.

ying ying was angry wif me cos i let her wait for me in the fitting room. i told her i would fetch a gown for her. but the gown was not there when i went to get it. and it was too far and too late for me to go back and let ying ying know. i even told kangting abt it and she used a loudhailer to shout for ying ying's name. but apparently she didnt hear, so she was mad at me.

the 3rd part i dreamt of going back to hall and home since there's a one week break. i saw my room (hall) has turned into qifen's chem lab and she was doing her expts there. the rest of the stuff i cant rmb le.

haha.

Tapiola

Today i went to Tapiola. a normal place, with shops, supermarkets, banks, H&M, etc. Somehow the place gave me a very unique kinda feeling. I dun really know how to describe it. the place...its like some European kinda street, wif someone playing the accordion, wif pple sitting in the cafe, wif the elderly at the banks and doing their groceries shopping...its somewhat like peaceful ville where life is carefree and happie.

Indeed Tapiola is a nice place, with the last yellow piggy keychain to add to my collection and the long-time-no-see Namimunnki. Its really nice. Reminds me of Lapland. And for the dunno-how-many-time-th, being mistaken for a Japanese. In what ways do I look like one huh???! Haha.

I'm staying at a fantastic place. 6th floor is probably the highest in my area, tts why I can see the clear blue sky whenever i look out of my window. maybe its near the airport, i see lots of planes. cool! i saw 2 planes one in front of the other, somewhat a 200m from each other. Pardon my parallax error. but how big can a window be? if u can see 2 planes at one time from a small window, they shd be quite close to each other. maybe i shd time the no. of planes i see from my window in 1 minute...I bet i can easily see 10 or more.

and the sky here is reallie beautiful. esp its sunset now. so u see the different colours forming. wow~.

i hope i get to go Paris in March to look for 2nd sis. haha.

How truthful can pple be? You think you are part of them, but do they really see you as part of them? You feel happy because they are with you, but do they feel happy because you are with them?

They just belong to a different school. That doesn't mean that they are bad, and we are good. Maybe they are really nice, just that, yah, they go to a different school. I also dunno.

Maybe I'm just stereotyping. Maybe I'm holding the binoculars in the opposite way. But its worth thinking about that. Hmm...

I'm going crazy. I hate marketing. All along I thot I'm much better at such stuff than EE stuff, but it seems like I'm wrong. Stupid Aker Yards/STX. How on Earth would I know how to do the assignment? Why, I dun even have the reqd book! Sucks. I should wake up from my dream. There's a reason why Business didnt appear in my list of uni choices.

Just now I played Chicago with my roomies. Not exactly the best game, but at least it took my mind off the work I had to do. And I hated that cos I literally did nth productive today. I hate myself. At this point in time, I'm still dating Aker Yards. Argh!

Weird dreams

I have been having such weird dreams these days.

Last night, I dreamt of food. Actually the dreams didn't make sense and it seems vague and messy to me now. All I knew was a dream about some cheap food being sold at this street. Every time I visit the street, it seems that there is one kind of food that is particularly cheaper than the street opposite. And in my dream, I visited the same street abt >5 times and the same exact sale happened during every visit.

Just now, I took a very long nap. Some 3.5hours. I dreamt of some tribes. But it turned out that the tribes were my family members and my ex-colleagues. I can't really rmb the details now. But I do rmb some issues with my parents, some strikes along the streets of Singapore and I was there with my hp camera as Priscilla was holding on to my camera, and some parts where I was looking for a toilet and I finally found it some streets away at a deserted MRT station.
Come to think of it, the dream seems rather queer.

Falling is painful! The stupid ice on the ground made me fall for the 2nd time in Espoo. I seriously hate the ice and snow. I can't wait for the weather to be much better.

Like I said, falling is painful. At that moment, I felt as if i was going to faint. My eyes blurred, my wrist and butt hurt.

"Its not abt falling, its abt getting up from the fall."
Fine then. I was really surprised that no help was attempted to be rendered by the so many pple near me. Nobody bothered to come and ask if you are ok. Both times. And I belv it would be the same case were to happen if there are going to be subsequent times. Maybe it was too common for them to see pple falling. Finland is cold, no doubt abt that. Are the that pple cold too?

"If you have to fall, you have to know how to fall."
Apparently i didnt know. I didnt even know what went wrong, and the next moment I landed hard on the seemingly innocent-looking snowy ground. Somehow my wrist hit the ground hard and it got injured somehow. Maybe it was a sprain, a fracture or just a strain. I dunno. All I know is that-it hurts.

Every morning, I wake up, hoping that the snow would melt away. For good. When will that day come?

Haha. I'm back from my Lapland Trip. Actually quite some time ago le. But anyway, the trip was cui cos the organiser was very cui. I can't believe the worst happened - we missed the last train home. We shd have gotten back by 1am the latest, but we ended up back 6h later. ZZZ. Luckily there was the express bus, we didn't have to sit at the train station and wait for the whole while.

Anyway, it wasn't as cold as expected. There was starry sky (uncountable stars), but no northern lights. Skiing was shiok without falling. I fell like 4 or 5 times? I can't rmb. Almost dislocated my right arm, but it miraculously found its joint and went back to its original location. Phew! I can't believe as a first-timer, I actually took the ski-lift all the way up the hill. I didnt dare to come down! Hee...my savior was a snow-mobile. The cottage where we stayed in was well-equipped and cosy! It even had its own sauna. And 6 of us built a BIG snowman right outside our cottage. Haha.

Now that I'm back, it means back to school work. Lab is hard. 3003 is harder. DIP is hardest. Dun undstd what on Earth the materials are writing abt. GG! I better not fail anything...if not I'd have to go thru everything all over again in NTU. The only nice module is 3010. Haha.

Next trip: Easter Vacation to Sweden and Norway wif YS and 2 other NUS guys from China whom I've met during the Lapland trip. :)

Its cold here. I'm referring to not just the weather, but the festive mood too. For the 1st time I'm spending CNY at such a far place from home. Oh well, maybe its just not the right time to go for SEP. But since I'm here, then that's too bad.

CNY celebration at Helsinki...CUI. Some performances and fireworks. But still, better than nth. I spent CNY Day 1 and Day 2 in my room, with my lecture notes and my laptop.

Do I feel sad? Actually no. I just took it as any normal day. But of cos, it would have been much better if I'm at home. At least I'd have better food.

I feel like I'm a part-time housewife. All the while, its either eating out or mummy's cooking. I never had to worry abt my own meals. Not that I'm worrying now, but its just that you will feel sian having to cook your own dinner. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. Eating out is so ex. This is Europe. Also, my stock in the fridge is running low. Its time to be Maria tmr and stock up my compartment in the fridge. I'm left with nth nutritious except eggs and cheese.

Lapland trip on Thurs. Somehow I reallie dun feel like going. The thought of -25 to -15 degrees Celsius really sends shiver down my body. They say northern lights is beautiful and everyone's is so excited. But I'm not. I mean yah, I want to see the northern lights. But i rather stay in somewhere warm. -25 degree Celsius. Its worse than a freezer. Somemore we have to make our own trip to Tampere. Where on Earth is that sia? The train tickets there are so ex! and we have already paid like 200plus euros for the whole trip of which you spend majority of the time traveling. I feel so cheated.

Zz. Enough of complaints. Have to cook my dinner now. tata.

Highlights of the day

The 3 of us stepped into a sauna. OMG! It was so hot, and we could barely breathe thru our noses. We stayed there for some 20min which seemed like an hour, and we just couldnt take it. Felicia said sauna is good for the body...and according to the internet (http://www.goaskalice.columbia.edu/0353.html) , it seems to be true:

• "your metabolism and pulse rates increase, your blood vessels become much more flexible, and your extremities benefit from increased circulation"
• "brings about the same metabolic results as physical exercise"
• "relieves the symptoms of minor illnesses such as colds, revives the muscles after tough physical exertion, and clears the complexion"
• "senses will be sharpened, and your tactile sensitivity heightened"

Oh yeah. So good, i shd just visit it more often since its free and just steps away from my apartment.

We cooked dinner after that.

I used the washing machines and dryers. I almost gave up meddling with the dryer. I couldnt find the start button, neither could I understand the markings on the machine. LOL. And I almost thot one of the machines ate up my right glove. Haha...

Sports sports sports...

Whats so fantastic about sports?
Whats so nice about being in the sun, getting yourself tanned like someone of another race?
I dun undstd.

I do what I like. Just as long as it keeps me fit and healthy and keeps my heart pumping at a normal rate.
I do sports for myself, not for the sake of others.
You don't need to join softball, captain's ball, netball, basketball, football, hockey or play with anything round just to qualify as a sports-player.
All the more you don't need to show the whole world of the 101 photos of you playing sports.
Can't you just swim and jog and play badminton when you feel like it?

I just dun undstd. Hmm....